Friday, January 27, 2006
I feel so Old
Like centuries of dirty soap water has been poured upon me.I feel so old.Grabbed by the ankle and dragged out of the cold dark safety of the womb,forced to open my eyes to a world where i see only grime.And nothing in common with me.I feel so old.
Why though?It IS becoming an increasisngly adulterated world.All for the consumer rights of hot blooded males,we rob our children of their innocence?I mean,i wouldn't be surprised to see strippers on Sesame Street,the rate we're going.And yet, movie companies and the showbiz department always add a little something something for the parents in kid shows.A cannotation,a joke.It's always there.Like,for example,in that movie,Antz?The one with all the Antz? The main character says to the heroine: "All right!You're getting off my most erotic fantasies list!"...Sure,a joke to the adults.But what if a kid asks,what does most erotic mean?Then,well, the parents could always lie...But the fact of the matter is,They are still exposed to this.Another example would be in the movie splitsville,A FAMILY show.You see this little kid,about...6 or 7.He screams out the word,sex!!!!Towards the end of the show.An inoocent potrayal of a child's view on the matter was what the producers were intending.But it was pretty unnnerving to see that seen.All that shit about letting your child "broaden his horizons",well,Sure,but not when the lil bugger can hardly walk!
I remember when i was first exposed to the matter.A tiny kid,with a bloody heavy school bag.Everyone was talking bout it in primary school.It was a topic shrouded in a dark enigma.And all we did was play around the edges.But play we did,mixing fact and fiction,imagination and reality.Horrible times those,when girls transformed from your best friends to something you should,frankly,be afraid off.No one could have a decent conversation with the opposite gender without being taunted.And then there were the crushes.Something i still can't figure out.So primal the instinct,and it is seen so early in life.I had my first one in kindergarten.It was pure.Not filth that was made with dollops of mystery.I truly thought that girl was pretty.It was that.
So basically,Love has always been there.It has always existed.Now it's being confused with lust.And this is happening to younger kids...and getting younger too.
Pornography.Sure,it has existed for centuries.Writings about prostitutes.But it was probably used by grown men in the battlefield.Not by kids.So easily accessible it is today.So easily they can be corrupt.It is the learning factor.And the desire to put into practice that creates offenders.They cannot control themselves.It is sad really.
I feel so old.And as i look at the world,i don't feel that i am part of this.I don't. I watch.And all around me,men holding constitutions and corrupting politics,I see them as undisciplined little children.Running around,thinking about themselves.Is there no one else that sees the big picture?No one else?I feel so old.Thrust into a world i see with all completeness,I know every facet of,And yet,cannot understand why it has to be.I feel so old.Yet i will continue to watch.For i am very interested in seeing where life will take me.Curiosity abounds.I feel old,but my desire to see myself true burns young.It shall never be quenched.
"I would carry an umbrella around these days.I would be expecting a hail of fire and brimstone any second now."-Me
.PROFILE
Paul Victor
The crazy,wild,caged and hating it world of a dreamer stuck in a steel grey world.
Born Dreaming,So the doctor had to slap me a few extra times.
.WHISPERS
.OLD MUSINGS
.GLADES
.CREDITS
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