Monday, April 10, 2006


Someday

Routine is mind-numbing.Very soon, you don't mind how numb your muscles are.It's the same thing, day in, day out.And breaking out is near impossible.I begin to question myself.Of my decision. But,i will stop.I put my trust in people i believe in.If it is thus that my life would become clear now,it is so.A-level,Uni,Work. Sure, i might be making tons of money,but is that really what is want? To a certain extent, very much so. Someday, i'll take my degree and go write scripting for games.Yes.It's what i want to do, it shall be thus.Laugh, i don't care.Someday, i will break out of routine.Out of this dreariness we call,life.I will do what i want.I want to LIVE. Someday...I must wait.Sigh.So i shall.

Look at me, going through moodswings like a little girl.I'm just annoyed at how time passes.How life GOES ON,or so they say.I have to admit, i miss my secondary school life.It was boring, it was dumb, but it was mine.We were all together.It took us so long to realise that we were friends,me,seetoh,sean.Damn myself for not seeing it eariler.I was with rruss all along, well, that's one thing right.Life GOES ON.It sucks that is does.I know we'll be friends for years to come.But...well.

Life is...life is...Frustrating.
I will make it better.It's only a matter of time.

And then, i think...What is so bad about it?That i should throttle myself in the womb of semi existance?It's not all about rumination.It ain't about the bad, though, authors are making some moola from bringing it out and exxaggerating it.Like the noodle maker.I think i've never read more a negative book.Like,my god, it's so bloody weird.And so sad.But, life, is not about negative feelings.With ignorance comes bliss?That's why stupid people are so happy? Maybe.As for me, I don't want to spend the rest of my life in a stalemate of figuring put what life is, dwelling in the negative,and leave my mind rendered and bleeding from it's encounter with the world.Life should be enjoyed.Do not quote me on this.I mean,the simple joys.Family, friends, love.These really are what makes life worth living.Simple, pure,unadulterated...joy.So hard to find these days, with our madness and obsession of time.

alone at 2:27 AM

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